I always find Christmas to be the hardest time of the year. It’s the time you need your loved ones the most, because without them it’s just another day.
I love the anticipation of this one day. The way we all get excited, decorate our homes, stock up on stupid amounts of food. It gives us something to look forward to; the one day we can forget everything and just enjoy ourselves.
Then there’s the New Year. Every year I aspire to give up something, even though I have no intention of actually following through with it. I have found 2013 to be a complete disappointment. Besides finishing university, I feel I have taken a step backwards rather than forwards. I feel more lost than I ever have done before.
I don’t want to make another resolution that I cannot keep. But I’ve made a promise to just let myself be happy. I’m so intent on constantly second guessing everyone and hurting those that actually want to get close to me. Maybe if I stop over-thinking everything and just let things be, eventually my life can start to put itself back together.
I hope you all have a wonderful start to 2014- I sure as hell can’t wait for this year to end.